Its seems that me & him didn't really contact for a year after our 3years relationship break-up. Met him back during his grandma's funeral, abt a month ago, after the funeral i went to meet Mao, Leong & Co.
All along happily msging him, that night he asked me out to his hus & meet him, so we are like betting whether tonight will i meet him, if i lost i must be his girlfriend, LOL if he lost he will treat me eat & i still must be his girlfriend (SORT OF WANTING TO PATCH UP, lol) he says cos he suit me the most, even both of our parents dote on both of us & both parents are in very good terms :)
Overall i did go over, when i reach ther he hugged tight & look sad facing me saying that he miss me, he couldn't let go of our relationship for so long (ME TOO) kiss me on my lips, that very moment i realise all along i didnt actually forgot him & our happy memories, i'm using drugs to cover the pain & stop thinking. He says that he still love me & ask me waited for him if i want, cos now he did want to concentrate on work & studies, sometimes i felt something wrong with him hiding his hp, just like the past how he use this to flirt ard.
He did ask me meet-up again, the next days at abt 3am when he off work, asking me whether want go back home with him? but i'm not free on that day so didnt meet-up. After that night he started to get cold to me & i msged him, but he says that he doesn't have a girlfriend at all & doesn't want one also, ask me dont think too much, not to worry & he's different from the past. So nevermind, i believe him, since he said he changed.
BUT
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I found out actually this is all lies all rubbish! ytd night i receive this & my heart sink,
"how ru? just want to ask u why u still askin sam permission if u want to go abroad? u still like my boyfriend? ur planning to take him back? sorry his mine already.ur his past..dun come back and spoil our relationship. where havin a baby already..wat do u want from him?"
from his "GIRLFRIEND" & now i realise he cheated my feelings, saying different things to his girlfriend that i gg aboard & wanted to ask his permission WTF?! (this is call covering his own backside) i replied this to his girlfriend,
"JUST SHUT UP.
i didnt ask him to tell me that he still love me.
i didnt ask him to hugged & kiss me.
i didnt ask him to ask me wait for him if i want
& most imp i didnt ask him to say that he don't have a girlfriend ok."
I rush out of the lanshop as my tears are dripping :(
i'm a hush person (whoever know me well knows ) when i saw all this i wanted to rush down to Duxton Road & give him one tight slap but my mum stopped me, she say she will ask everything clearly.
Nevermind, what i can do now is oly torlerate okay!
I sit alone ouside District Bar & spin my head trying to get myself back in mind, thought of the roads we walk tgt before..
At last i choose to send him this
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You deserve a slap from me. Bastard! You lie to me, you cheated my feelings, i've never told you all this before cos i still trust this relationship works and trust you that you said you suit me the most like you said i'm your special one but now? You show me i'm a fool cheated by you by all this lies and rubbish you said.
You said i didnt change still the same but you change to worst even worst then the worst guy i ever seen.
I shouldn't have drop a singles tears for you but stupid me still did. I'm the girl that you ruin and ruin my whole life.
I still lock myself and think of our HongKong trip the sweets day and i tease you laugh all its really stupid me!
I'm the most stupid girl in the whole world! FAKE! you're so fake.
One words from me 'bye' say bye to all thous memories, you and me and the 3years.
I paid to see your real color. I shall then wash away every singles we had. I'll never wait but to give you a tight slap to end everything.
This hurts me deep into the bottom of my heart. But i'll tell myself its don't worth for YOU
You want to use a words to chase me off but i see you once slap you once.
For you to remember for live. You ruin a girl like me, that couldn't stand back to spot anymore cos you've drive me to the corners.
A big thanks for everything your blardy stab on my heart.
I shall pray hard, i shall pray very hard.
If time can turn back, i will still choose you
but i'll never choose to leave you..
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Lovesss ❤
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